so lately i have been feeling the urge to reproduce. this is an issue i have struggled with for about the past 2 years now. i got married at 25 and planned to have a baby when i was 27-28. but unfortunately i became chronically ill at 26. so getting back to health was my main concern.
Now i am somewhat healthy again... and those feelings of baby-making have returned. But the huge sucky part is that i am very very on the fence about it. At 35 I am feeling the extreme urgency to just make up my damn mind. I want the baby- but am terrified about the idea for many reasons. one being that is it such a permanent decision- there is no turn around's- no do-overs...
i love tattoos and i won't get one for this exact reason. and a friend of mine once related having a child as to having a tattoo on your face.
I asked my husband this weekend if he wanted to have a baby. he said- "Sure it would be nice- but do we really need one? No. we don't need one. We can both have fulfilling lives without a child"
I think it's just hard for me because most of my piers have children. They are "families".
Plus this week i have been watching the 'Discovery Health" channel- and it's all about birthin' babies. I can't escape it.
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it's a natural instinct!
Merry Christmas!
-steve @ fluxlife
You can NOT watch the baby birthing shows. I avoid them like the plague....as you can well imagine.
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