Mouth by Mouth

so far Olive is doing well after her surgery. She had a small tumor removed and we found out she does not have cancer... or "the big C" as my aunt carol said.

i've been stressing over her a lot. it's unbearable to think about what she is going though, and i am coming to grips with the fact that her time on the earth is limited. i just can't deal with it.

last friday my mom called me out of the blue, and she said she was calling to see how Olive was doing. I was so touched for a small moment. and then she came out and said the real reason she called was to tell me her and my dad just went and bought a new puppy. how could i be so stupid? my mom could give such 2 shits about my life it amazes me.

So i went over her house and saw the puppy. very cute and very playful. it bit my dad on the face and he was bleeding and it bummed me out. i stayed for an hour and left.

This week i was approved to work from home. I move my shit outta here on friday, and will be up and running by Monday out of my dinning room. Goodbye Vineland, Goodbye 40 minute commute!!!!

sweet moola

After checking the receipts from Olive's visit to the Emergency Animal Hospital, I realized they only charged us for one enema, not two.

"Baby i wanna be where you are"

yesterday my beautiful goldfish at work died.
this morning i ran over a chipmunk.
i killed it. or at least severely maimed it until someone else killed it.
then tonight....
i just can't believe MJ is gone.

weekend pictures

Deck and pool on Memorial Day

All cleaned up after the party

Miniature quilt I made on Monday.

family shit

i have an aunt and an uncle and 3 cousins that are not talking to my family anymore.
3 years ago my father and his brother fought over how my grandparents should be placed in a home, and how their estate of about 1.2 million should be handled.

My uncle accused my parents of stealing money and his whole family has not spoken to mine ever since. My grand parents sided with my uncle. They even sent letters from lawyers. So in one fell swoop- i lost contact with all of them.

i pleaded with my uncle for 3 hours one night- begging to try and work this huge misunderstanding out, just because i love him and his family so much. he ignored everything i said.

i understand that money can tear families apart, but why do they all not have to talk to me? i feel like i just lost so much with no say. i tried to reach out to my cousins on Facebook and they ignored me.

I think it's bad that i lost my aunt, uncle and cousins, but my father lost contact with his mother, father and only brother. The pain i feel is so bad- i just can't imagine how he feels.

Ode to Spring:

My latest investment:

i have all i need now to watercolor. well i'm short a few paints, (about $50 worth) but at least i can start to draw now! yay.